Barefoot
I've read enough about final exams. it's time for me to make my own time here. I'm doing this because I go through these cycles where I can't sleep for a few days or a few weeks at a time. I run out of things to do. Hate to smoke. Hate more to have to run across the street barefoot and ask the young guy sitting on his porch for a smoke. Watched all my DVDs a few times. Don't want to wake up the family.
And these guys like Waxwing and the Rance guy. I'm intrigued by the idea that I could be anyone you know or no one or someone you see on TV and suspect is real but don't really know for sure never having met him.
There was a guy named Franz who gave me the name of Wanda. At the time I hated it but I deserved it. Think Bukowski. I hate Bukowski. I hated that name but at the time I deserved it. That was 20 years ago.
Now I'm a mom and a maker of potions and shiny utilitarian objects and sometimes I have a few things to say about this and that.
I am hopelessly devoted to olive oil.
I thought of doing this all about my favorite men. But somedays I don't have any. Except, of course, my curly-headed boy.
I think I need to practice first.
Last night we went to a Cuban restaurant and the rain was dripping through the patio roof. I wore a dress I thought I would look good in wet and barefoot. Then we picked up the boy, put him to bed and watched The Brave. Bootleg Portuguese version. Way upstairs in the stacks. I had bad dreams about barefoot children running in a circle around Marlon Brando.
Not a bad first effort.
Night.
Posted by rosyfingers
at 12:50 AM MDT